I always disliked the saying " New Year, New You!" because I don't want to be a whole new me.... I want to embrace the loving, crazy, fun, spiritually curious, hot mess that I am! I mean, I am always going to want to learn more to keep me on my toes and help me evolve as a person, but NEW? nah.... IMPROVED? maybe.... GRATEFUL? always...
There are a few things that I do enjoy doing that keep me on a path of exploring what the next wonderful thing about myself that I haven't learned yet. One of those things is a little Life Audit. Ever done one of those? Sit down and really list out the places in your life that are working REALLY well. Then list the places that are NOT working so well. Where are you leaking energy? Where are you filling yourself up? Are you even taking time to fill yourself up? Self Care is sooo important.. and yes, like I posted on Facebook tonight, my self care was a body and facial scrub and some awesome essential oils... but it's also taking care of yourself emotionally and spiritually too. It's one thing to talk the talk but are you walking the walk? And here is what I mean...
An example: As a mom, and I have had fellow moms tell me the same, we tend to always have wise words of wisdom for our children. On how to handle stress, anxiety, confidence, self - esteem, peer pressure, bullying ,etc. But do we even practice what we preach? Do we just give until we are depleted and empty, let people talk us into doing things we REALLY don't want to do and then tell everyone, " It's fine...." or " I'm fine...." I call bullshit. It needs to stop and I have learned quickly that NO. is a complete sentence. Period.
For so long I would say yes to things I DID NOT want to do even though I knew it would drain the hell out me. WHY? Because, What would people think? I was someone who was "always there for others" but never there for myself. It dawned on my one day when a friend laughed while out shopping and said " You can't fall apart Kim, you are the most put together out of all of us, we all want to be like you." WTF. Did she even realize how much I fall apart? How much of a hot mess I can be when I am juggling too much and I crash and burn? Enter dumpster fire reaction. I quickly realized the amount of anxiety I now had to always be "put together" was unacceptable. I wasn't taking care of me first. I wasn't surrounding myself with people who I could be a hot mess with and lean on when I needed it. Which in all honesty - If I did, I would have so much more to give others. It was a huge eye opener for me. One that challenges me still...every. damn. day.
I still have to carefully consider when people ask me to do things outside my boundaries of time, energy and skill. Can I do this for this person and not compromise my physical limitations... my emotional/social battery level.... my spiritual beliefs? It takes a calm and pause I am HORRIBLE at... I am a person who knows I CAN do a lot and will say yes first and regret it later because just because I CAN, doesn't mean I SHOULD.
Any of this sounding familiar??? Yeah. I am right there with ya sista. Good Freakin' Grief. I know I am an intelligent woman, so why is this so damn hard? I have a sign that hangs in my kitchen that says:
Yup. This about sums it up. So, how do I try to consistently amaze myself as opposed to baking dirty sock casserole? The Life Audit. Taking time to assess things in my life. Bringing in more that serves me on my path and releasing the shit that doesn't. Letting go of old habits, people, behaviors, etc is NOT easy. But most of the time, when you let go of energy that isn't working for you - it makes room for new energy to enter that is. When I say no to things that are not going to support my highest and best self, I am actually making sure I am operating as my highest and best self for those times when I can give - and I give from a place of unconditional love and integrity because I know I have the capacity to do so.
Make sense?
I am going to do a Facebook Live on how to do this Audit soon. I will post the "worksheets" here that I created to help my coaching clients over this last year get a handle on what is going on in their life. If after you do this exercise you find yourself saying, "What now, Kim?"... Message me. It may be as simple as a 60 minute Reiki sessions to assess your energy centers and see where you need to be concentrating your work... or maybe a few coaching sessions where we sit and really get down to the nitty gritty of what is happening and why... Maybe even our upcoming Shadow Workshop... a deep dive into your own inner workings...trust me, it will explain A LOT. Or maybe just a "Yes. I see you and I hear you. Completely."
Stay connected with me. On my website, on this blog, on my Facebook page.. or just email me! Wherever you are on your journey, you can always pause, assess and make choices that will keep you on the most abundant path forward.
Remember - you are never alone. Divine Spirit has your back always. And so do I.
In your Divine Seva,
Kimberly
This is the life audit workbook I created exactly one year ago today. Enjoy!
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